Added back side
This new card's background was for me


I wanted a view of the dining room and kitchen thinking of Children being fed, but more important to me in my childhood would have been being safe as I tried to sleep in peace, not feel a paw of a Dead Thing reaching down my pajamas. I saw immediately that someone who would reach down a nine-year-young's pants could just as mindlessly kill. In a moment, I thought the safest course of action would be to not resist, since I was in a basement apartment's dark bedroom far enough from my family's aid to risk being permanently silenced if I screamed or resisted.
Had that stopped there, I think I would have made sure everyone at school was aware there were mindless guy's effectively targeting Children, us. But then I felt its maw on my private area, and I blacked out. When I awoke, it was morning, and I quickly dressed and fled upstairs. I didn't remember any of it, just the decision to never sleep in the same bed as it ever again.
Had I remembered, I could have spared my younger brother a similar fate, except he said he told the Dead Thing to stop, and it complied. Though a failed suicide attempt prompted a friend to suggest I was raped, and I should read The Courage to Heal, which I did twenty years later.
Reading the stories of what the Women from the book went thru made what I endured seemed minor, so I slowly remembered and even more slowly saw it really did happen. So I confronted the rapist 20 years late and my brother for some reason admitted what happened to him, then took the coward's way out and refused to go to court with me. The phone number the rapist gave me as someone who would vouch for it caught what most people would call diddling his two sons in the tub.
I suppose if I were ignorant enough to allow a 20-something-year-old male stranger alone in a bathroom where my two young sons were sharing a bath, I might also be cowardly enough to move away and refuse his sons the chance to deal with it as victims, not as bad boys.
So I added a second back side to my community card partially just as a respit from the responsibility of the content I post, to use a graphics program and work at art that's easy to get right, and partially because a safe place to sleep as a child would have put me decades ahead of where i am now.